October 5, 2010

Sometimes I wonder why people go through certain things and I wonder why there had to be so much pain involved in another person’s life and not much in anothers. But when it comes down to it it’s all about sin and forgiveness and grace. The circumstances are but 1% of what really matters in life.  There are so many people out there who are hurting who are in need of Jesus. Sometimes I even think to myself maybe I just don’t want to be faced with the reality of my sin because I am afraid to find that grace really wasn’t offered to me. Why is that so hard for me to accept?  I am forgiven and free and I am no longer bound by sin.  Almost like we spend too much time wallowing in our pride and self-condemnation. Rather I want to turn my focus on the bridegroom and allow my heart to delight in Him.   Psalms 37:4 Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart.

October 4, 2010

I love Fall....October is pretty much one of the best months of the year. The chillyness starts to pick up and you get the light breeze all the time outside...great stuff :D Not to mention you get candy at the end of the year too! I get excited about alot of things in life and the more I want to press in on what it means to know Him more the more I press into His rest. God gave me this life to enjoy.  I spent to much time worrying about little things worrying about my problems and stupid things that probably aren't really going to matter when I die and spend eternity with Him.. Amen?!? I'm sure we could all say that. God has shown me alot about myself during these past few months. One of them is where I put my self-worth. I've always had this issue with guys...as I'm sure alot of girls do! But guys to me over the years have just really caused me to have this bitter heart. Bitter at what they did bitter at myself and bitter towards life. Almost like I was barely trying to make it through because of all the dead weight I was carrying around from my past. We were so not made to carry it by ourselves. It's like I hear this over and over again and I know my Father in Heaven doesn't want to see me sad and hurt, but don't you ever feel at times like it seems impossible to do it? I realized that by me spending all my time hating on what they did in the past. I had no time to live with what I had now. Life is really really short and the more I taste freedom the more I wish I could've learned this when I had the chance to say no to every hurtful thought towards another person. We don't have time to waste this life is such a gift and there are so many fun things so many blessings and plans the Lord has for us it's almost strange to think that I would rather hold on to what someone did to me in past then let go and allow myself to live life. God has been healing me by showing me more of who I am in Him. It's been really hard for me not to get back into that self hate mode. I've been learning about repentance too. Pastor Beau was preaching this past Sunday on Submission to God and he was like..."you either repent and believe or you don't." I think Satan is always trying to trip us up by getting us to think there's some middle ground or gray area. It's a sobering thought for me to realize that I am either growing in the Lord in His Word or I am coasting and backsliding.  1 Corinthians 16:3 "Be on your guard,stand firm in the faith, be men of courage be strong" I'm also learning that I always need to be in the scriptures or it's pretty much game over for me! His Words provide healing to my hurting heart and they offer a firm ground for me to stand on. Thanks for reading this blog!

September 14, 2010

Live hardcore for Jesus or your being fake. the end. There's too many things in my life that have happened to me where I can't say that Jesus hasn't been there for me and why shouldn't the world know the best thing that has happened to any believer? I'm over the lukewarmness..and I'm speaking for my life...but indeed I am still learning how to forgive and bless those who curse me until the day I die I guess I just have to live with the fact that I am not perfect and Jesus is and that's exactly how He would want me to live I think....walk in the forgiveness...

September 13, 2010

Wow we’re already in September….time flies haha Yeah I’m getting really bad about these blogs  I’m not doing them enough but God is still doing so much despite my laziness..or could I say my business with other things? Hmmm I don’t know but anyway, I’ve been spending a lot of time in the psalms  and they’re great for when your feeling low…I love how in a lot of them it says His statutes are my joy and my heritage and I meditate on your decrees. I was reading that and I was like..hmmm so basically I need to soak in these and not just psalms but in the Word…in life we’re always going through stuff bad and good and the more we think on things that are pure and lovely and perfect without flaw…(that’s what His Word is haha) we shall grow and become like them. Pastor Mark is always mentioning in his sermons about how we need to watch out for stinkin thinking lol I think I do a lot of that. Another point God has always been bringing across to me is the fact that I am always in the Word always learning more and more but not really doing and I think everyone can relate to this and I’m like God do this in my life or God do that and He has such a sense of humor always bringing the most practical things in our lives to help us out…I guess I’m speaking to the girls well most on how over analytical and complicated we can be I mean other times we can be simple but I know for me I’m always one extreme I need balance! But thank God for His Holy Spirit who can help us in our weakness. I’m always in awe of how God can work through all of this mess in me though I mean really I feel like so many times my flesh can get in the way with just controlling and always wanting to be Lord over part of my life or another but it says that He who began a good work will finish! So that’s really good….but always always always He reminds me relax and remember to enjoy life because Jesus came that I might HAVE life….

He’s so enormous and powerful and often times I think I try to put God in a box, but it’s by His  grace that He even allows us to have a healthy fear of Him during seasons…like having this fear of Him is always for my benefit…oh how we do have a selfless God. Anyways I’m rambling … trust and enjoy life peoples God’s good..

August 26, 2010

Share Jesus with people it seriously helps build your faith!!! I can't begin to describe just the spiritual high you get when do as well...ahh good stuff. Something I have realized is that God will normally put someone  for you to witness you that challenges your walk...well at least for me that's always how it's been and it really teaches you something about yourself and your relationship with the Lord...look out for divine appointments!! go Jesus :)

August 23,2010

I'm just gonna start off by saying how good God is He deserves it all...not to mention He's definitely patient with us lol! But anyways this is what's been roamin through my mind through the past several days..I feel like God is always grabbing us deeper and deeper in the waters of His love for us. It’s like We pray and we say we want to go deeper with Him, but He searches the inner parts of us and He sees what’s really there and chips away what doesn’t need to be there and so forth.  It’s like “my bride I know there are still areas in your life that you haven’t surrendered completely to me, but I love you all the way anyway and my Son went through it all so you didn’t have to fall short of me and with my power I can take away this dead weight.” This is what goes on through my mind as I think about that and I am also beginning to realize how much of an importance it is that we need to be ALL in the Word. Soaking it in and breathing it in and trusting in THOSE words only THAT'S the only thing we need to be putting all of ourselves into.  Jesus is the way and the truth and the life and whomever the Son sets free is free indeed. Praise God that we have this divine opportunity to even share in His plan and experience the power of His Word the power of His being in just how He does all things for His glory even in how He is molding us. Isn’t God good? Yeah that’s all I have to say about that!

August 19,2010

August 19, 2010

It’s been awhile since my last blog… but anyways I feel like each time I begin one of these things I can’t really put my finger on how I could even begin to describe how God works, because I can’t He’s so infinitely huge. I have been realizing more and more just how small I am and how big He is and I don’t just mean that in the obvious sense but just that His ways are not my ways. I want God’s wisdom and more of it everyday and if that means becoming a fool in the world’s eyes so be it. He shines light on so many sins each day I am thankful more and more how graceful He really is. I’ve been in the book of John recently and it was interesting to see how Jesus treated the people surrounding Him up until the point of His crucifixion. The world did not know Him and treated Him the way they did. It brings comfort to me as well to know that I don’t belong to the world because if I did the world would love me as it’s own. It’s really neat to think about how the bible can apply to our everyday lives as well. But God is HUGE I am itty bitty…that’s it… become a fool for Him <3